Right or wrong, but I hate cops....
DarkEyes

1 post
20-Jan-2005
3:24 PM
Over a year ago I was sadisticly raped by an exchange professor from a European country, and held hostage for seven hours by him as well. I'll skip over the details of the huge amount of physical and psychological damage/proof I had against this "man", but in large part because of the shoody and absolutely careless jobs of the two detectives who were working for me this professor not only got completely free of our criminal justice system, but is happily living back in his homeland as well.
Anyways, I have a complete utter hatred for cops. I think you guys are absolutely useless, and the vermin of the earth. My case was not rocket science, and the detectives never took my case seriously even though I was deeply traumatized (one even asked me if I'd feel "morally right" about sending this professor off to prison for a number of years). The thing is, cognitively I know there has to be good cops out there, but my mind won't allow such thoughts to dance around in my head. Amazingly so, it just took two police officers to mess around with one of the most important events of my life, but in return I've ended up having the greatest amount of anomisty towards you all.
I'm sick of these extreme negative feelings I have towards your group, for they do reach mammoth proportions on the negative scale. I don't like wishing ill on every one of you, and I want to get through these feelings of utter hate. I'm very serious when I say give me a reason why you people are not modern day Nazi's..... .
rivercop

1 post
27-Jan-2005
10:50 PM
Very sorry for your tragic incident. heres a reason for you www.odmp.org 17year vet
DarkEyes

2 post s
28-Jan-2005
6:17 PM
To rivercop,

I looked at the webpage you suggested and have to say some of the stories (maybe all, but some affected me more) were sad. Like when an officer was trying to drive to a man's home who attempted suicide and wanted to save him, hit a patch of ice and crashed and died in the process. Another one was when a live wire was down and a cop was going to stick around to make sure nobody touched it until the telephone company came, but two young boys for some reason had to cross this area anyways and when the cop helped them over to safety he accidentally electrocuted himself and passed away as well. Was also sad looking at pictures of surviving family members. At any rate, I'm not "cured" but thanks for sharing this with me - I do appreciate it.

Last Edited DarkEyes on 28-Jan-2005 6:18 PM

Sledge

1 post
15-Feb-2005
10:35 AM
It's truly a shame that two clowns have made such a negative impact on you. After reading the two message posts you submitted, it's quite obvious that there is nothing we can say here will change your outlook on the rest of us. My true hope is that you will NEVER need to call on the police for a traumatice event again, although the next time might change your perspective. I would prefer that your next encounter is of a positive nature.

Just consider the profiling that goes on based on race, religion or sexual orientation and apply that to our profession. No matter what statistical group you pick, there will be some who leave a positive impression, which will go mostly unnoticed (unless it is of such magnitude that it leaves a deep impression) and there will be a few very negative impressions, which will burn themselves into your memory forever. Human nature is to focus more on what affects us in a negative way than that which allows us to continue on our pre-set course- never really knowing what was done to make it possible.
My hope is that you will be able to continue on your course without knowing that there has been an event that was prevented because a diligent police officer was on the job.

Last Edited Sledge on 15-Feb-2005 10:39 AM

DarkEyes

3 post s
24-Feb-2005
6:39 PM
This message is specificly for "sledge" -
I'm do agree with you that I'll [probably] never look at the men and women "in blue" the same way again - power can be a wonderful and very misused thing, and the two officers in large part in lack of doing their work were the ones who let the sadistic sociopathic professor go free. He was very skilled and professional in his "craft", to me had obviously done this before to others, and will keep on wreaking malicious havoc into other women's lives - there is utterly no excuse for him to be let go of like he was - had many of the characterists of "Ted Bundy" actually.
Anyways, I do agree with you that people tend to hang on to negative memories more then positive ones, but it's just that other then this circumstance I have never really had any other profound run-in's with the law. Although I must say, it's at this time I believe more then ever you people should have psychological screening on a regular basis in hopes it'll weed out the police men and women who are power hungry, sadistic, or utterly apathetic about their jobs.
Nevertheless, the last sentence of your writings to me did take me aback and gave myself something to think of. I honestly have no doubt there are cops who have saved other's lives in various ways, and work hard to keep the community safe. This is why they became police officers, and will die trying to fullfill their values to the community. I thank you for that sentence for it did ground me a little, or in some ways possibly a lot.

Last Edited DarkEyes on 26-Feb-2005 9:37 AM

Sledge

4 post s
25-Feb-2005
5:07 PM
I'm glad that you understood what I was trying to say- I have a tendency to get a little verbose and start to sound redundant. I completely agree with your idea of "psychological screening", on a regular basis. There are obviously some guys (or girls) who get passed on the initial psych eval but develop "issues" as their career progresses. At the same time, a little dark humor is something I think can be healthy.

Thanks for having an open mind- I'm not sure that I would be able to.

DarkEyes

4 post s
26-Feb-2005
10:24 AM
"Sledge"-
Your "verbose and rendundant writings" were more "philosophical and intelligent" in my estimation. Your seemingly deeper thoughts and ideas were what I was hoping to recieve when I posted my message actually.
At any rate, I started to undergo therapy not too long ago and in large part it's for the incredible amount of hatred I feel towards various people or groups (like the police for one example), and this is one small attempt of trying to "humanize" your kind again so to speak. It's the most interesting feeling having complete enveloping rage and animosity towards another group (this is the mindset where favorable things can never come about), and while I cognatively know my thinking might be just a little skewed I'm having the toughest time seeing any officers in a savory light.
Anyways, I did appreciate what you wrote - it was both well-written and gave me something to ponder over. Anyways, this might sound strange but your thoughts about police officers saving the lives of others and having an incredibly positive effect in return on these people was a nice thing to think about - I literally never, ever think about this. At any rate, human goodness in Blue might actually exist and in return it brought me out of my "hatred hell" for a few moments. Time like this are priceless for myself and I very much welcome them - thank you. Really.

Last Edited DarkEyes on 26-Feb-2005 10:26 AM

Vinman

21 post s
31-May-2005
11:00 PM
This site was built exactly for what just happened between sledge and darkeyes.......it gives a person the ability to pour out thier feelings......and if an officer wishes to reply, as sledge did....a communication line......darkeyes thought all police were evil......sledge replied....gave her a different way to look at a problem, and the tension was eased.It doesn't change darkeye's outcome......but the overview of the situation can change.Darkeyes.......by no means am I trying to belittle your situation.....the fact that you had the courage to write what ya did...and have Sledge respond, and you two conversed.....is a healing process all on its own....I wish you all the best...

Last Edited on 9-Dec-2007 7:09 PM

pooky
site co-owner
31 post s
2-Jun-2005
8:02 PM
I am very sorry for what those 3 men did to you darkeyes and i hope someday you find the answers you need to heal....when i say 3 men...... i mean the rapist and the 2 men in law enforcement that brushed it off like it was nothing....my point is..its the man behind the badge that makes the officer and not all men or officers are created equal.... dont blame the badge...... blame those men....in the less than perfect world we live in... not all men and women are good and sad to say not all officers are good..i hope and pray and believe most are though and that the percent of bad is very very small....but please dont let a few bad apples spoil the whole bunch in your mind....believe me....i know its not easy ...and at times find that i have to be reminded of trying not to do the same..meaning to only hold those involved accountable and not the whole bunch as a whole..whether it be women..men..or officers....just remember they all didnt let ya down....only those specific ones did......i know they were not who or what you thought they were and i know its a very hard thing to trust again after someone lets you down in such a huge way...but i hope someday you can regain your trust again.... i wish you all the best and hope you can find the peace you need....God Bless.

Last Edited pooky on 2-Jun-2005 8:06 PM

 

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